Today I am angry...very angry with Jesus. I feel like he has completely left me...and I feel alone. Seriously Jesus, why didn't you step in after realizing I was making so many mistakes.
Where were you God? Why didn't you protect me...guide me...why didn't you show up?
I am pist and am wondering if I will ever want to be in love again. I am starting to realize this may not be worth it after all.
After all the fighting...searching...risks...heartache...maybe I am not cut out for the one thing I have centered my life around.
Maybe I was wrong about love.